Past lives part two
When I had completed my list of unique things to which I felt attracted, as well as things that bothered me, I sat down at the kitchen table, held my breath, and Googled my name. I didn’t find much, so I started searching starting by Googling my name followed by the first item on the list – the country of Norway. I decided to search images instead of text to see if I recognized anything I saw, and somehow found myself researching a Danish author Karen Blixen http://www.karenblixen.com/ whose work I had never heard of before. She had my same first and middle names, and her maiden name was similar to mine.
I headed over to Books-A-Million http://www.booksamillion.com/?&ad=BNGBAMM and ordered two of her books. I was intrigued, because I remember from my trip to Norway that I had a much easier time understanding the Danish than I did Norwegian, and reading Danish came naturally for me as well even though I struggled with reading Norwegian. Reading the details of her life drew out the most intense sorrow I have ever felt, and I couldn’t put into words exactly why. I had to quit reading about her for awhile, but her books still came in from where I ordered them.
Curiosity finally overcame awkwardness, so I started reading more about Karen Blixen. This was very uncomfortable for several reasons, the first being that my logical mind tells me that the likelihood of being someone semi-famous in a past life has to be statistically very low. Of the over six billion people alive in the world, how many were really that famous in this life or in a past life or ever? “Used to be famous” is not a likely statistic, that’s for sure, so I kept my guard up really high. I decided that I would feel most comfortable if I could prove that I was not her in a past life, so I comforted myself with that goal.
This past-life research occurred during the same time period where I was also seeking other types of personal growth and had begun using Holosync meditations which I ordered online from Centerpointe at http://www.centerpointe.com/holosync/?gclid=CPiO1PnZ2qQCFRBL2godxkj4rg . The personal growth methods encouraged by Centerpointe Research Institute and its mastermind Bill Harris (also a co-author in Rhonda Byrne’s the Secret http://www.thesecret.tv/ ) include being okay with whatever happens and approaching issues with curiosity; these were the mind-frames I attempted to keep during my research. It didn’t take long for my studies to become very interesting.
I absolutly love the idea of looking in to see the bigger picture. meditation is so importaint in being able to see who we really are. the bile even says "be still and know that I am God" it is only through this stillness that we will find God/peace. I think seeing the pictuer is best described by the idea of trying to see a reflection in a lake or a pond. Untill the water is perfectly still you will never see a clear picture. it is only when the water becomes still that the pitcher becomes clear. likewise when we meditate and look in and become perfectly still and quiet we will become amazed by the pictures we see
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